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Hi.
Everyone keeps asking why there's nothing about me on my support site.
Well...that's because it is just that, a support site and not about me.
I've always had trouble writing about me but here goes.......

First off I am Transsexual not "Transgender".
Personaly, I hate that term which lumps transsexuals in with crossdressers, fettish and other types of sleezy deviates..........

Although designated male when I was born in March 1952 I've always had gender identity problems. (I later found out I posessed internal female bits and had a pituritary gland which did not recognise testosterone) Having a very dominant mother sort of helped push me in the female direction as well. Through school years I never joined in with the disgusting little things boys enjoyed doing and absolutely refused to play football etc.
I was confused and dismayed to find I was not physically the same as the girls I played with though my breasts were obviously more developed than a male should be. Hated school, kept to myself, refused to take part in anything where people would see my body and spent most of my time practicing music (piano and guitar) or just staying home doing housework. Started going out dressed as female at about 13-15 instead of going to school and discovered I was more attracted to (and by) men than women. Did the mucho thing and rode a motorcycle (Triumph) but never tried to hide my female side either. People just thought I was rather strange.
Inevitably, not being able to conform to society's requirements I found myself on the wrong side of the law on more than one occasion and have spent a bit of time in various prisons. I found that being defiantly female in a male enviroment just made me stronger and more confident as well as developing usefull contacts for later in life.
I recently made submissions to the prison reform committee, naming names and dropping more than a few admin staff in "it"so hopefully made some impression on them which will lead to a few changes in the rules. Also recently helped several people make submisions to the Human Rights Enquiry.

Got sick of New Zealand and its attitudes and in the 70's went to live in Australia (Kings Cross of course). It was an eye opener for a dumb kiwi but I felt right at home there and was accepted by everyone. I had a go at everything...street worker, barperson at the infamous 'Bottoms Up Bar' and 'Venus Room', some stage work and played piano for quite a few famous people. Became famous amoungst the people who really ran the place for obtaining whatever they needed, be it drugs, cars, guns etc.
Nature took matters into its own hands in the late 70's when it was discovered I had testicular cancer which had also spread so far through my body it was considered 'terminal'. Surgery and 6 lots of chemotherapy at St Vincents, Sydney proved them wrong (so far). While recovering from that lot I was involved in a serious motorcycle accident which left me with major internal injuries.
As a result I suffer from depression and am officially "bi-polar" though I choose to deal with it myself and not take medication.

Traveled to Asia many times which is fun (I find them all very friendly and a bit in awe of a very tall woman) and have lived in Vietnam and Thailand.
Have returned to New Zealand a few times but things have never changed much so always ended up back in Australia. I was kicked out of Sydney as part of the "clean up the Cross" campaign so settled on the Gold Coast. Being the only "girl" there at the time was fun. I find Australian men quite ammusing with their attitudes ranging from "openly hostile" through to "cant get rid of them" once they've had a few beers
Finally, I returned to Auckland in early 90's and became involved in support work with the Auckland Pride Centre. There was no information available for Trans girls in Auckland at the time so started a website (once NZ got access to internet) with local information.(originally on Geocities).
Unfortunately these days I am finally having to admit that I am too old and sick for the non-stop partying and running around town in mini skirts ect (hey...if you've got it..why not) so have had to slow down a little.
On the plus side though, I have a sense of humour and fem personality and people never get the chance to have issues about my gender. Anyway, even at more than half a century old, I'm still having fun with being proudly transsexual and have been doing so since before most people reading this were even born.

Whether I am "pre op" or "post op" is nobodys damn business unless I am sleeping with them and I am totaly not amused by some among us who have to declare to the world that they are "post op" but then still act like men. (this goes especially for the ones who hit on either my partner or me)
Likewise....I am not too impressed by men who, after taking all the rights and privileges afforded a man throughout their life, decide once the testosterone has run out that they now want to be a woman....now, instantly, regardless of the dammage it does to friends and family. Then, having done so with typical male determination, still demand all the rights and privileges of a man plus those of a woman.....
I still help where I can but it makes me wonder if perhaps it is just too easy these days............

I spent many years fighting for my right to live my life and use my body as I wish and will not be told how to live by the so called "normal" people nor by the "trans" community either.


I have a wonderful partner, Shelina (also TS) to share life with. (5 years now).
We both work in the hospitality industry, are definately "out there" living our lives without any problems or signs of discrimination apart from that which any woman would encounter.(that is part of life as a female, get over it and get on with it)
Despite recent attacks on us and treachery from within our own community we are still happy to talk to anyone, have a coffee and chat.
Please note though, we are not interested in anything more than friendship.